haix.
i have spent lots of time thinking.
and i found out one thing!

i cant choose to u-turn!
cz i have paid for the papers already!
=(

i think i have to just dash across the finishing line and most importantly,
i have to brain-wash myself that good results do not belong to me,
if i achieve it, it's just my bonus.
=(



anyway.
i have been slacking like shit for the past few weeks.
including ytd.

i stayed up to watch Death Note again.
well, i think i m addicted to it once again.
=_=


and nothing much.
just hope my online stuffs quickly arrive!
cz when it arrive, alvl will finish SOOOONNNNN~
=)

and lastly, do not spam my tagboard with anonymous or watever names.
if not, i am going to delete my whole tagboard away.

thanks v much for ur cooperation.
add oil add oil.

AHHHHH.

i m so pissed off with myself la!
i dunno why i just cant concentrate on my studies.
i am not joking.

i dun seem to be putting in all my effort in studying and days to ALVL is decreasing exponentially.

i dunno.
i seriously dun feel like going for ALVL.
cz i know for sure that i am not going to get the results i want!!!!!!
I want to get an A for phy!!! I want to see miracle happen!!
hmmm. it's such a slim probability.
but i have been working hard. how come i still do not see any improvement?!?!
the more i do practice papers, the more demoralized i am.
and GP too. why why why!?!?!

thus, i dun see any point for me take the exam?!?!

i have been asking myself:
' will i get straight As if i u-turn this yr?'

well, i think...high possibility.
it sounds like a tempting choice.

i know everyone is v stress over this period.
must not give up!!
=(
( i think i m contradicting myself for saying that)


in conclusion,
i m just soooo damn screwed.
16days left. what miracle can i get?
i think it's more realistic to find a wall n just bang my head on it. =(
&^%#)*!$_)$&_)$&)!^#^!%@(!*^#_!$&_!$)

oh!! my bro fly to INDIA this morning!
HAHA.
how contradicting...should he be happy to travel or not?
haha.

my whole family wake up at 2.30am to send him off today!
yeah.including me!
i woke up at 3am. damn early right!!!
HAHA.

it's been yearSSS since i went to the airport.
haha. i only travelled to thailand once when i was 8yrs old.
haha.10years ago leh.
same for my bro.

so he's happy that he can travel again! but this time is for amry training...
which i think it makes the whole trip vvv sian.

haha. some of the pics took at T2.
and after sending my bro off,
my parents and i were so lame to take the sky train to T1 n T3 and walk around.
so lame la! HAHA.
but it was an unforgettable trip to see the sunrise at 6am plus!
and changi airport is soooo deserted in the midnight.
which makes the atmosphere v sad and lonely!
haix.
BYE BRO!


haiyo.
i wish my bro can come back from india ASAP, which is 3weeks later.
i wish time can fly and welcome him back again..
however, on the other hand, i wish the time can stop!
cz 3weeks later will be the start of A's.
and there is seriously not enough time for me to study finish! serious!!
ah..so how?!?!
=(

and school has been vvv stressful nowadays.
we have ENDLESS work to do for MATHS CHEM PHY!
and there seems to be no time left for GEOG N GP which are equally VVVVVVV impt.
or i would say..MORE IMPT than the H2. cz my gp is VVVVVVV LOUSY.

haiyo! how how how!!

yeah.
i must get back to study soon!
BUT. i am quite sick today.
so i think i shld take a rest first.
if not, i will sure collaspe in front of my study table.
=) cya.

PAINTING. :-)
I JUST WISH THAT MY PARENTS N BRO ARE ALWAYS HEALTHY.
IT'S JUST SO SIMPLE.
i love SINGING! cause i'm SINGaporean.