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Hello, my name is PAINTING. I really LOVE MUSIC. I love TV DRAMAS especially with HAPPY ENDING.
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10.30.2005
HAHAX.dunn0 why? i am so relax n0w. not so stress up, or troubled. i am s0 high.. YESH! i becum cheerfuL agaIn. *erm..sounds so werid* HEEHEEX. w0w. the feeling is lyk putting down a 5000KG rock in my heart. so relax. so care free now.. HAPPY!!! HAPPY!!!! HAPPY!!!!! mabbe the appeal results are not out yet, so i can be so happy~ but it's okay for me to go Geog or Bio class. i like both subjects.. ((: so happy,like everything now and i dun mind abt frenz alady. we can maintain our frenzship right? we can oso make new frenz right? HAHAX, LET'S PARTY TONIGHT! 10.29.2005
holiday starts...this means my nightmare begins.. i was wrong from the beginning. i shldnt have let myself step into such situation. i stepped into this situation without being notice. i was blinded by all the goods. i wasnt like this before. i told myself not to think abt the issue. i also swear that i wun. i was so sure at first. mabbe this is the power that pushed me into the trap. u are cruel. u brought me to the trap, pushed me inside, and went out urself. u leave me there alone. i saw ur smile from ur face when u left. this is the moment when my tears flowed down. i told myself to control all my emotion. control my feelings towards u. sad to say that, i failed. i m willing to apologise to u. i am very sorry. i hate u. really. u brought me to the extreme end of happiness, and drop me down to the core. how can u do this? this is ur evil side right? nope. i shldnt have said that. becz u have always be like this. it is all my fault to imagine u to b so caring, so patient, so wonderful. i cant believe. a top 10 student can actually believe ur lies, imagine u to be so good. now i noe, u use this to flirt with gals. LIAR. SORRY SORRY. i shld have said such a bad thing abt u. it is all my fault. i m too stupid. idiot. i m insane. it isnt ur fault. i think too much right? what has happen had happened. so the only way of solving the problem is ez. the one and only way. i'll leave ur world quietly. u do not need to look for me. i will pretend to see a stranger when i saw u. u do not need to say anything. dun feel bad abt it. please, dun be angry with urself. really, it had nth to do with u. if u happen to read this, promise me the last thing. you must stay happy no matter what happens, run for ur happiness. this is a very gudd opportunity for me to slow down my pace. i am very tired running behind u. if u cant promise to give me any more happiness, let me go. cause u are giving me sadness for all this time. let be be brave for the last time. let me leave. i shld have leave from the start. i was a burden. please frenz, dun ask me anything abt this. i will not ans. 10.27.2005
things are so complicated.why do we have to make such a difficult decision when we are only 14? this is too cruel. we cant take the stress, the pressure. i will breakdown. this isnt me. i shld be happy, cheerful. why has overpower the true self? too many things happen at the same time. i really cannot handle it all by myself. but there is no one for me to talk to. no one will listen to a irritating gal lyk me. it is expected. i haf imagine everything to be so nice. in my dream, everything is so beautiful. who noes? hahax. the fate play a big joke on me. everything was opposite. this joke is funny. it gonna turn my life upside down. my subject combination make me so stressed up. my family matters. make me so worried. my frenzship, make me so depressed. my personal matter, make me so sad. how to solve all this. i really dunno. i hope time can stop for me to rest and think of a solution wif someone i trust. 10.24.2005
 how to start my story... this is a happy story, but why i wrote it when my tears rolled down my cheek... today is our class outing. abt 28 ppl attended. that was a lot... and this is the 1st and last time, so many of us can go out together as 2Effusion. do we still have another chance? lao shi jiang, i dun think so. OUR FIRST N LAST CLASS OUTING since last friday when they discuss abt all the class outing thingy, my heart was beating super fast. too fast that i can imagine. this is not becz i m scare of anything, this is becz i was so excited,and wish monday will fall soon. FINALLY,today is the day. all of us meet at CP 7.45am and set off to our destination-PASIR RIS PARK. everyone was smiling so happy, and AS USUAL, i KI SIAO again. so HIGH. keep on taking pictures of frenz. " BEFORE,DURING,AFTER" hahax. that is wat i keep saying today.. at first, i thought the guys wun let me take their pictures, but whu noes, they join me in the game, they are willing to let me take their photo, they are not "shy". den we get into bus 89. WOW. i think we BURST the bus. 28 of us, went into the bus at the same time. the other ppl was so shocked wif they eyes open wide. mouth open bigger den me. we were so noisy in the bus, but whu cares? HAPPY JIU HAO. it may sound a bit selfish. but pls forgive us. we dun mind it. can u let us play watever we can for the last few days? but we do not noe wat time the bicycle rental shop open, so we walked around the whole downtown and "waste" our time. finally. the shop opened. and of cz, we rent the bicycle for 2h, and cycled to the end. at first, i tried to cycle the "double" bicycle. but i keep falling.. hahax. poor sylvia whu was sitting behind me. she was so worried and she scream louder den me. [i suppose so~] BUTBUT! i din not let her down, i CHEN GONG LE. i can cycle v steady. syl praised me oso. she too shy to admit. HAHAX i m so....erm....HAHAX~ >.< i dunn0 how tiring it was to cycle from one end to other. i was exhasted~ but i m clever. ride the double bike, and sit behind. ask pohyih to sit infront. so JIAN hor. ermm...that's me right? *YUP`** wow.. that was so relaxing. i no nid to cycle, can rest~! BUT,i DID help him cycle hor. i m not so wu qing. out of the whole journey, i help him abt 30%. erm...so gudd right? (feeling so guilty inside my heart) i dunn0 he got license anot? i was sitting behind, screaming all the way. he turn left turn right. stand up, sit down. not balance. however,still thkz to him lar. i can rest for so long.. luckily i din not fall. IF NOT,he sure....&(!@*^#()@&*( hahax. joking. anyway,thank you~ ((: after cycling, we went to eat n play game. DA SAM,SYL,TOU KAUNG KAUNG play para para. kaung so gao xiao. his "pattern" was so funny when he dance. of cz, he failed the stage. ermm..this is expected right? hahax. actually after playing, we planned to go bowling. in the end we did not becz ppl think it is too expensive. -__- then we headed to the beach. it was abt to rain, but we sort of dun care and play at the beach. tou kaung kaung has planned to throw aloy into the water. and of cz, he DID IT. he throw aloy in the water and he was so BAI CHI. he fall into the water oso. all of us were lyk GO KAUNG!! JIAYOU! so united right? erm..i got no comments. lata,they change their target to pohyih. 3 of them chase each other, and in the end, 3 of them fall into the water. SO GAO XIAO. and i took a picture wif 3 of them soak wif water. so funny right. I NOE~ HAHAX. the award,most innocent guy goes to our dear CLARENCE. he so ke lian. he was playing water himself at one corner when the 3 monsters kicked him into the sea. they werent aware that clarence phone was inside his pocket. erm... so... i guess u all noe wat happen. he say BYEBYE to his phone. i accidentally splash the water onto sharm, den she thought i gu yi de. she take revenge, splash me back. WAH, wet my shorts. sosososososo wet. after this incident, we decided to HUO CHU QU. dun care abt clothes le. juz splash water. nvm if we wet our shirt or shorts. cz if wan to play,dun care abt all the external factors. jux haf fun. right? wahseh.. the guys attack the gals, splash us water. my shirt is so wet. however,juz as we were having fun, the sad thing happen. a rusted long metal went into sam's leg when she was chasing keqin. it was so scary. sam scream at the top of her vioce when keqin pulled the metal piece out of her leg. then darren n arthur carried her to the nearest chair and let her rest. *erm...unhappy things dun write so much ok?** and of cz, our YONG GAN sam ke fu everything. she was laughing and smiling when she walked out of the clinic. 360 change. WOW. COOL. after that,it was abt the end of the whole outing. it was interesting right? most memorable vacation. den all of us split and went home in different means of transport. some tain,some taxi,some bus. although we split, but we noe that our hearts are still together right? THIS IS FOR SURE! 2 EFFUSION HEARTS ARE ALWAYS LINK TOGETHER. den yue'an,joanne,sharm,tou kaung kaung,pohyih and me take bus 89 and go to cp n haf our dinner. during the trip, we talk a lot abt wat will happen nx yr, wat will happen to us when we saw each other nx yr? will it b v paiseh? or we can still b frenz forever. nobody noes? we cannot confirm anything before or future. wat we can confirm now is that all of us will cherish the last 4days. spend as much time together as we can. we CANT afford to lose anymore time. each second is important to everyone. i m really touched by all the things. really happy that i can attend the class outing. looking back at the photo i take. although it is quite STUPID~ it is really so zi ran. so natural. every smile on their face was real. not forced. it was really a v nice day. we are rushing for time how i wish time can stop here and let us take a rest. THANK YOU ALL OF U TO MAKE THIS TRIP SUCCESSFUL. thank you.
10.22.2005
NONONONONOPLEASE STOP THE TIME FROM MOVING. i wan everything to pause here so please give us a little bit more time. i haf so many things heaven do heaven do all crazy things wif u. i haf many things i heaven tell u. heaven tell u all my secrets. will i regret if i keep everything in my heart? i dunn0 wat i am g0ing t0 d0. can anyone tell me? this is confusing. i cannot afford to lose u anymore. but i cant keep u by my side. that's why i shld let u go. u wont blame me right? i am left wif one week to cherish all my frenz, oh god, this is tooooootoooooo short. can u give us a little little bit more time? we will appreciate if it really happen. 2 Effusion from 1E to 2E 2 years nobody noe wat is frenship. all we noe is one thing, quickly CHANGE CLASS. we feel that the class is lyk sand that is spread around, not co-operative AT ALL. the boys hate the gals, the gals hate the boys. this feeling among us continued. that's why we always lose in class competition. we did not even take part in inter-class game, whereas the other class were having fun. everyone in 2Effusion was selfish. we are willing to blame other without feeling any guilt in our heart. that is how cruel we are. we are one class, we shld have one heart. this is wat i thought, however, i was totally wrong. the gals have form up different groups and attack each other, the boys keep on picking on the person they dun lyk. this is my selfish class, so why m i so sad when it cum to seperation? then, i have learn to look things at different angles. actually, we are not as bad as we thought. in fact, we are one class wif our heart spread all over the place, spread to everyone wat's wrong wif this? this is gudd. also, one day i stayed back in sch, i saw how the guys play among themselves. i was shocked. they were playing so happily, even if one of them fall, all the other will crowd around him, and hold him up. this is surprising right? we are not as selfish as we thought. 2Effusion, the KI SIAO class. we haf comedy show everyday, which brighten up our life. as for the gals, we are now one big group, we are so united, joking playing "fighting" wif each other. can you believe? and not forgeting the teacher whu fight the war wif us. ms kim, our co-form and chinese teacher. we used to hate her. thinking that she was naggy, irritating. but as time pass, we saw her kindness, patience towards we - the naughty children. now,we noe that she is the best, lyk mother taking care of her children. so heart-warming. our fave maths teacher MR RAFFI. at the beginning of the yr, we were shock that raffi was our maths teacher. he used to be our PE teacher, how is it possible for him to teach maths?? lao shi jiang, all of us hate him way of teaching maths which make almost all us failed. we were worried. student's parent even complained abt him, and wans him to b transfer away. luckily it did not happen. we are not blind, all of us can see how mr raffi wanna improve his style in teaching, he always held extra lesson after sch without complain. giving us "tips" oso. although our maths was still the last, but we did show a lot of improvement. now toking until improvement, our science has improve the most among the 6 express classes. this all thanks to the polisher, MR TIEN CHEE WAI he started polishing a black carbon, slowly to diamond. isnt he great? he was really a vvvv gudd teacher. he was every strict wif us. he always "COPY 500 LINES." so scary. this is the reason why everyday morning, when we were at the parade square, every single one was holding on his SCIENCE NOTES. reading for thousands times. so KAI SU. at first, he gave us the impression that he was a v strict teacher. but hu noes, he turn up to b a joker. -__- his lesson is really fun n funny. although i always say that i dun wan him to teach me in sec3, in my heart, i wan. if there isnt tien tien, we wun obtain such gudd science result. if there isnt tien tien pushing us ahead of the others, i guess, we will all b kick out. he is really FANTESTIC. everybody is lyk this, we did not cherish until the last mintue. we are now left wif one week, not even 1week, i shld say 4days. only 4 days, 96hours. we really cannot afford to waste anymore time, we muz cherish every day,hour,mintue,second. i believe, even if we are seperated, our bond are still as strong as everything. no1 can break it. i really love 2Effusion. all my happy memories are found in that class, i will never forget all my frenz,teachers and memories. i love u guys! sign off as, 2Effusion, baiyanting. 22/10/2005.
10.14.2005
 this is ShiTty*8eiGht `YO MAN!!!! FINALLY CAN POST LE... after exam,life is so much better~~~!!! overall,let me summarise the whole exam CHAPTERS for u guys with 3 words... DIE, SHIT, BYE. that's all. OKAY OKAY...end of exam chapters... let me start wif something nicer... today go sharm hse... at first mum dun let me go, but she see her daughter so ke lian,bo liao at home, she decided to let me free... that's so touching right... i noe...!!! hahax. i can get the best female actress award... (DUN CRAP!) okayokay,relax... den i walked to sharm's hse... play DA LAO 2 wif other 3 SHITS... haha... i play wif sam,sharm,ziyi... hahax... at first i not v sure how to play... but shu neng sheng qiao... den i finally noe the jue qiao... HAHAX... i lian xu win 4 rounds leh... PRO MAR?? (YESYESYES!!) crazy gal.. SO FUN LOR... den play comp, go see leon's galfrenz pictures... she quite pretty lar... but a little "bitchy" (sorry to offence any1) we play,eat,scream,talk,dance,EVERYTHING lar... that shld b the way after exam shld b... btw,i think all of the 7 shits nid to thank sharm for letting us to go her hse n haf so much FUN. THANK YOU. this is the happiest day this year... so gan dong... hope we can go ur hse again as shitty8!!!!! COOLX.. when we were going home,we toook the above photo... so funny hor... i v jian,go cover ppl's face... HAHAX... that was fun.. but the "formal" photo was v nice... everyone was so "pretty"... ermm...the "informal" one leh... erm... erm... erm.... FUNNY LAR... got 1 pic,sam got kick away... my face becum so WHITE... SK2 advertisement lar.. hehex. so ugly lor.. but nvm, that is JI YI SHENG KE.. hahax. really enjoy today v much... time is really running short for us, 2weeks n all of us will b seperated. that is fast. i really hope that time can slow us for us... we will cherish it vvv much.. hey guys,muz rmb the "GAO XIAO" class- 2 Effusion. muz rmb a gal called PEH YAN TING, also,my seafood company and not forgetting the most precious frenz, ShiTty*8eiGht. shittybombom ((: |
