i dun wan to go to sch!
esp this few days..or weeks to be exact.


i am just sad over lots n lots of things.
studies, relationship, guitar etc.

it just seems that whatever things that i had put efforts in,
do turn out the way i expected it to be.

it's all inversely proportionate to my hand work.

in short,all my hard work just doesnt pay off.



i hope i can stop being such a perfectionist.
i always imagine myself as a clear and transparent piece of glass,
and i do my best to keep the glass out of scratches.

however, often the case, the more i want to keep this glass clear,
the more scratches it will have.
lots and Lots AND LOTS.

i just cant stand it!!!

how i wish i can vent out my discontentment by shouting or scolding and not coping myself in my room with tears dripping.


i would say i m a very sensitive girl.
so any little statement can make my heart sank to the bottom.
just like what Mr Toh told me TWICEEEE in class,
" what happen to you? i m expecting an A or B from you. you did not perform this time"
Pls!
i hope he wun say this to me for the third time.
cz for the past 2 times, i already fought hard to keep my tears back into my eyes.
and i doubt i can still do that for the 3rd time.
i noe he meant well.
that's why i feel even bad when i din perform. - such a failure.





and if anyone out there see me irritating, or you simply do not like my face,
pls do so and tell me.
it's much better then acting friendly to me but keep suan-ing me?

there's nth i could do right?
i cant make everyone like my attitude or behaviour.
i got to live for myself.
so pls forgive me if i just ignore you guys in future.
becz i always believe that if u do not like me, why shld i keep sticking out with you?
and u will just get pissed off right.


yes,
so for me, now, school is just a place for me to Study and nth else.
staying at home in my tiny room would be what i am looking forward everyday.

PAINTING. :-)
I JUST WISH THAT MY PARENTS N BRO ARE ALWAYS HEALTHY.
IT'S JUST SO SIMPLE.
i love SINGING! cause i'm SINGaporean.